Project Worldmerge, stage one

Ok, so you have every right to think that I've dropped off the face of the earth, based on my lack of postings.....but the truth is quite the opposite--in fact, part of the reason I have not been writing at all is that soooo much has been going on in my life lately, I seriously didn't even know where to begin! But here I am, finally, and here goes...

A-hem.......geez! Where do I even begin?? Well, as a friend of mine has sung to me quite a few times this week (*wink*) "Start at the very beginning, a very good place to start...." ok, so good advice, but I really think that if I were to do this, there'd be similar side affects as those of a flu or cold medicine... "CAUTION: drowsiness, headache and in severe cases, dry mouth and vomitting may occur..." ok so BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!! QUIT STALLING, JANINA, AND GET ON WITH IT!!! A-hem, ok ok.....so ever since I moved back home, having travelled some and going to school for a year, it is obvious I have faced certain struggles and character buliding episodes...the things I found most difficult were not what you, or I for that matter, would have expected--you know, the typical loneliness, boredome, small-town suffication syndrom, financial hardships etc., but instead, the constant coming back to certain realizations…realizations like, so much of what I have thought were things that would pan out in my life as I became more independent and in taking more personal responsibility for my life and actions, when really I am beginning to think that they are things that will only change as I change…not acted upon by any outside source, with the exception of God’s influence, but coming from what lies within my own heart…ahh yes, my own heart…what a journey it is turning out to be in just learning to listen to this heart of mine! To be ok with following the desires that lie there once again…without fear of disappointment…that is what I am longing for…

Sorry to kinda cut this off on in the middle, but I need to log off now…more to come—I promise.