Day by day, moment by moment

I just got out from seeing what critics are calling 'the most romantic movie of the summer,' The Notebook. It came later to our sleepy little resort town than the larger cities, as many movies do, so I am sure I'm close to the billionth person to see it for the first time. Anyways, it is a good one. Your classic love story, with it's own unique twists and turns of course. One thing that really "spoke" to me is the part where the heroine has to decide what she wants in life. She has to search out her deepest desires and longings, and ultimately decide between two entirely different lives...I wont tell you what happens, in case you happen to be the billionth-and-one person to see it (hee hee). At any rate, I was left wondering how the film makers (novelist, in this case) were able to know what I was thinking about just this evening before seeing the movie??? I mean, sure, it is your typical searching-for-true-love-and-meaning type story, so it makes sense that nearly everyone would relate to it in some way or another; that it would touch some natural human desire in any heart---but to say some of those very same things that I myself had said just hours ago, and then see it on the big screen??? Too trippy. I have been feeling so torn lately...I have a good solid job, the freedom (for the most part) to dictate my own schedule, my own space, friends and family that love me deeply, growing relationships---and SO much more! Yet here in my heart there remains a yearning for adventure, love, learning and far off places...I wonder why I continue to relate each of those first three with the last as being the answer--that those things can only be found far away from where I am? You know, lately I feel that my thinking is probably much like that of Anne of Green Gables, who went looking for her "ideals" and found later that she had looked so far outside of who she was and where she came from, that they were not there at the end of her search, but right back in the town and home that she had begun from...I wonder if that is what is happening with me? If so, it would make sense to simply stay and grow, learning to be content. Yet I also wonder whether that journey away and back again was what actually caused her to see what she had left behind, and whether or not she would have come to that conclusion had she not ventured off.... Hmmm, well I guess all I, or anyone for that matter, can do is take it a moment at a time. Day by day, hour by hour, learning to live in the moment. I don't want to miss a single breath of it, and if I continue to try and see into the future, I will miss not only moments, but perhaps a whole wonderful life! So, here we are...I must learn to BE first, then do. I have a feeling that this is where I will find the water for this thirsty soul and sustenance for my hungry heart...day by day.